Imagine being in Anthony Messenger’s shoes. He is a sports intern at the Capital Gazette who found himself in the middle of the deadliest day for journalism in recent memory. This morning he appeared on NBC’s “Today”:

“I thought I was going to die.”

“We had to pass two bodies of our colleagues, which was something that nobody should ever have to stomach. Just unfortunate that somebody would come into a place that only reports truthful stories that are fact-based and unleash hell on the office. We tried to keep our eyes off of the ground. but inevitably, we all, as journalists, were curious. and it was sickening.”

Messenger somehow found a way to keep it together and text a friend to call police, he then passed his phone to a co-worker who sent this tweet account from Messenger’s account.

Messenger says he doesn’t know whether he will return to his internship, he says he is still just trying to decompress from what he experienced. Watch his emotional interview with the Today show above.